Rejection is a stabbing bitch.

Confused

How can I be so obsessed about someone who I have no right to?
It bothers me when someone doesn't reciprocate my efforts
Even if I wasn't interested
It makes me feel wanted
Especially when it feels like a crush
You want it even more
It hurts me to imagine someone going out on a date
Someone not wanting to reply
Ignoring me
It hurts so much
Yet I know it's irrational
Unnecessary
Even just as friends
I wished you'd reply
Thinking about your every move
Hurts me and bothers me
It's no one but my fault
Cause I shouldn't worry or obsess about it
It's stupid
I'm confused

Cry

Some people don't cry.
I do.
I love to cry. Cry my heart out.
When I'm sad, when I'm stressed.
When my heart is broken.
There is no better mend than to cry.
It's as if the tears took all my sorrows and hurt
And got washed away.
I'll never have to see it again.
I love you.
And I will always get hurt by you.
Because of how much I need you.
Because of how much I want to be with you.
But you can't always be near when I need you.
So I cry.
I feel better.
Tomorrow is another day.
Or maybe after this.

Christmas and Malaysia Intro

I have obviously not updated for a the longest time.... as usual. I go into a hiatus once in a while.

I have been away to Malaysia for quite a while and been jet-lagged since I came back. I am having extra difficulties sleeping tonight which is super annoying....

Just a little update about what I've been up to. I have been working nights over Christmas Eve and Day. Obviously didn't get much sleep over the period cause loads of things happening. On Christmas Day, went to church and caught some sleep. Then woke up fairly soon later cause we'll be having dinner lol... It's a lot happening in one day. What made it worse is that I had a really horrible cold with sore throat and fever. It was giving me a headache as well. I was very miserable...

Then again, I was going home soon on Boxing Day!! So was very excited. Mr Dino took me to the airport on that day. All was good until I stepped out of the car, walked a few steps, checked my pockets and realised I have forgotten my phone :( And Mr Dino is away, in the motorway somewhere... I went in, quickly sent him emails in hope he will reply me in time. Checked in and everything and continued emailing him and trying to contact him on Skype. I even tried bought credit to call my own phone and all that... But by the time he replied, it was too late. I was already inside. Oh well.. good thing I brought my other spare phone and decided to buy a Traveller Celcom Simcard when I reached KLIA. 

I had a pretty horrible trip on the flights this time around because of my stupid cold. The service and everything was fine. It was just me.. and my crap immune system. Also, I got the worst blocked ears during flights ever. On a side note (not a complaint), I had to change seats 2 times on the flight back to Malaysia. First, I was called up just before boarding to change my seats cause someone else wants to sit with their family. Fair enough. Then, I got an aisle seat which I was pretty happy about but then someone else came along and wanted to change seats with me cause she and her son had been separated.. I can't really say no. So, I ended up in the middle seat... That's me changed seats twice. 

Reached KLIA, went to LCCT and arrived in Sibu. Sigh, it's nice to be back. And then the food fest begins....