Thursday, December 27, 2012

Post Christmas


Pictures!

Let's start with what I wore on Christmas Day. A red and black dress with sparkly tights ( can't see it's sparkly here) and a furry fake leather jacket.


A picture where you can see the top part.... oh and some long necklace.


Closer picture of my dress. Ta da




Fancy nails..... DIY


Here's a few pictures of Ryan and me.



And here's a few more pictures of MOI!


Greedy pig.... I even look extremely fat in this picture... 




Granny and grandad....


Then we had dinner....


And I took pictures of presents I have opened lol....


Look what Ryan got me!! A complete set of Harry Potter books!! Wheeee


Although I did have to send the books back and get a replacement cause of some error..... see if you can find it in the picture below...


There are 2 books of the same title. They missed out the 2nd book!! And instead they have 2 of the 1st volume....

That pretty much concludes the end of Christmas Day. The rest of it was filled with eating junk and watching more TV.

I shall finish with a picture of a coffee machine that we bought Ryan's mum for Christmas.

A Tassimo machine. Makes yummy cappucino <3 p="p">

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas 2012!

Merry Christmas! And I'm not working. All is good.... for now. Will post more after Christmas pictures :) Here's some pictures of Mr.Dino's christmas tree and fireplace :)



Sunday, October 7, 2012

Happy 28, Mr.Dino

Happy Birthday to my beloved Mr. Dino. You're 28 this year and growing :)
Love you loads. xxxxxx

Sunday, September 16, 2012

25th Birthday

It was my birthday yesterday! I am now 25. Will update details of my weekend, hopefully soon...

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Queen's 60th Jubilee

It's the Queen's Jubilee!!  To me it means bank holiday. To be honest, bank holidays rarely meant anything to me in my profession. I will get the holiday off evntually but not usually on the day itself. Most of the time, I'm at work slaving away....
But I managed to squeeze a day off today, and Mr.Dino's off as well. Therefore, I'm in Glasgow now in bed watching TV....
I would like to say I feel delighted but I'm not. I was gonna drive my dinosaur to the dentist this morning but my Mickey won't start.... cos it's been sitting for 2 weeks without being started. So depressing... Need to jump start the car. :(
Anyways, enough rant and I'm off to enjoy my day off lounging about...

Thursday, March 1, 2012

How to Not Be Clingy

*WARNING - LONG RANT AHEAD*

I have a problem. I am what you call "emotionally clingy". I am basically insecure with myself and constantly needs affirmation that someone cares about me. I don't usually express myself in that way with friends, even best friends. This is because I know and understand how frustrating and annoying it can get when someone acts all clingy and desperate - and i really don't want to lose good friends who mean a lot to me. I don't do that to my parents either, probably because they are already overprotective and I needed them to un-cling to me.

For some weird reason, I cling to my boyfriend like crazy. I act differently around him than when I'm with my friends. I am more childish and more unreasonable. Maybe I thought if he had stuck around with me for more than 2 years knowing how I am, he was able to cope with my clingy-ness. I thought wrong...

We have this discussion once in a while where I blame him for never answering my calls and he says I'm being too needy (which I admitted know). He understands that I need some sort of daily reassurance that he is still there for me and I understand that he needs his space. Trust me, I have reduced the number of times that I call/text him over the years, although I still do that every single day but just not as often as I used to. And when he doesn't reply my texts, I don't make so much of a fuss over it anymore as long as he tries to answer my call once a day. Sometimes, he still doesn't, usually because he had fallen asleep or something of that sort...

This week, I had been at one of my worse. I have been feeling uncharacteristically insecure and plus, bored. He had been busy with his own "project", which needed to be done as soon as possible, for some time now. He's constantly working on the "project" that he seldom takes my calls anymore and I get very few replies to my texts, sometimes nothing at all. Last few weeks, it doesn't bother me that much. However, this week it was getting to me. I felt neglected. I felt lonely. I felt unloved. He would suggest that we do something nice just the two of us. Then something would come up (which I know is genuine and not his fault) and we wouldn't be able to do things that we have wanted to do. It probably was a few little things that built up and I was getting grumpy. When he continued doing that, I got quite depressed and pretty pissed off. All I wanted was to talk to him about how crappy my day had been and he wasn't around. I have no one else to talk to. I know he was busy but I felt the right to be mad. So I texted (about a dozen) and called (about every 15 minutes) - partly to annoy him and partly hopeful that he was going to respond. But no... and then the next morning when I wake up I always feel crap for being so unreasonable the night before. There is no point crying over spilt milk by then. And I ALWAYS apologise - I am that needy.

I have searched internet articles on crazy girlfriends and how to not be clingy anymore. I realised I am not the craziest girl existed. There are worse. Nonetheless, I have also realised that I cannot go on being like this anymore. I have got to learn to let go. So what I'm gonna do is:

1. Get a hobby/get a friend - don't know how that is going to work out. I have no means of transport and at late at night, where can I go to do a hobby?? I could bake, but would require some ingredients and thus, money. I could study.....uhh. I even got fed up watchin TV shows which is my ALLTIME favourite thing to do. Anyways, gonna try baking tonight. Or figure something out. And sad to say, probably don't have much people I would want to hang out with and not be awkward...

2. Build self confidence - I have insecurities about our relationship, in a way that he might leave me someday. I don't particularly get jealous or worried that he is going to leave me for another women. Sometimes, I feel that he we do break up he would't be that fussed over it while I am very prone to falling into depression. Even if he had assured me he will be very very sad, somehow I don't believe he would. I don't know if it's a guy thing, but he seems like he can very take care of his life and go on with it while I would just drop and crash. I should trust him more. Trust that he cares and loves me even if he doesn't say it a lot.

3. Learn to give him space - I need to understand that he doesn't need me to call him everyday and will scare him away. I think he feels that he is being trapped and is getting a lot of pressure to be commited. In fact, I think he is a scared of being too committed and this clinging is making him feel worse. I have to try to distract myself from texting or calling him too much in a day so he doesn't think I'm crazy. Most guys just need some time to themselves but that doesn't mean they don't love you anymore. Just how they are.

I should try on these few points while I try to amend this relationship. I have to stop obsessing that he is going to leave me. If it happens, it does.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Lent

Well it's Lent time again. This year I have no either what to do. And I didn't even fast for Ash Wednesday cox I totally forgot. Have to replace it another day... Maybe next week.

So, back to abstinence. What should I this year?

Refrain from certain food?

Hmm I guess I could refrain from chocolates. When was the last time I ate chocolates?

There are a lot of food stuffs I have no point refraining from because I dont even tke that much of them... unless they are bread, which I really do not want to abstain from...

you know what? I shall abstain from chocolates. And time for prayer as well. Should try to be more diligent at saying prayers. Feel a bit guilty because had been slacking a lot in this department.

Still love you though Lord :)

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Surprise!


Anyways,....just an update.
Some of the things I've done over the weekend...

1. New Haircut. Yes, I know. I butched it up :) I like it though. Worth a try ahhahaha


2. Got myself a Sony tablet!! Wohooo




Absolutely in loveee with it. Still experimenting...mmmm

Saturday, February 4, 2012

New Things

Okay, I have a few posts lined up which are (again) overdued. Anyways, I thought I'd start with something simple and lightttt....

New Things I Have Bought Since the New Year!

New boots!! Dark brown knee high boots from Deichmann


A pair of cheap brogues from Deichmann.


Lost my old toe ring so got a new one!! Silver still....




That's all for now!!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

New Hair Colour


I've dyed my hair red and got a haircut as well. The haircut ended up looking the same as the one I had before but I think I'm gonna get it cut again because it's not the hairstyle I wanted. Why didn't I get it this time round? I can't be bothered to tell the story.....so lets just have a look at my new hair colour :)

It's red violet





So, how did you like it? I LOVE it. :D