Ball Spree

Yesterday, we had lecture early in the morning and it ended at around 10.30 a.m. So, we decided to go shopping for our IMU Ball stuffs. I needed some accessories to match my dress cause it's sort of plain.. Yes, I bought my dress!!!!!

Back to the story, the necklace is slightly over my budget. But, I guess it's okay. I was too lazy too look any further. But, I guess it's nice... Actually, it is nice. I'm just worried it won't really match with the whole thing. But, it's too late to do anything now anyway...

I have another problem. I still don't know where to do my hair. How about make up? Well, this time I decided to it myself. Yes, you heard me right. I am going to do it myself!!! Not that I'm some kind of expert in make up or anything, I just thought it'd spare me the cost and perhaps I might look more natural. Sigh. I hope my underdeveloped skills are enough to do my own make up. If not, I will kindly withdraw from the evening's event. LOL. As if I would actually do that. Even if I ended up looking like the clown of the night, I will still be attending it. I don't pay that much amount for EVERYTHING so I could skip it.

I can't wait for the Ball. :)

Miss

Are there times when you think you have gotten over a crush you had long long time ago, and then realise that sometimes you can still find the ability to miss them?

Well, it's not that I still think of them all the time.
Of course, missing friends is a different thing.
Missing the feeling that you experienced during that period of time is another thing.

Did you ever feel a tinge of heartache when you see some random pictures of that person?
Did you ever end up rememebering the stupid things you'd do to get the person's attention?
Have you ever wondered how different the future would be if you ended up with that person or if you didn't have a crush on that person?

I've been thinking.
It may have been a really sad thing then. But, I guess that's a part of your memory that couldn't be changed.
Really, if it wasn't because of their very existence, school would not have been the same.... my life would not have been the same.... I would not have been the same...

MSK

I have exams tomorrow. And I'm doing this because...?
I have no idea. I do tend to do unnecessary things when I'm stressed out.
I can't wait for tomorrow! Not that I'm eager to take the exam or anything. I just want it over and done with. Then, I can go have fun for a few days before I get tortured in CNS.
I am listening to Jay Chou's Secret soundtrack CD. Think the all the piano tunes will stimulate my brain to study?

Frustration

I have lost all strength to resist even.
I am getting very sick and frustrated.
Sometimes I wish I could shout and scream it out.
But, really, it's not that simple.
If everything could be solved bu just pointing out the truth,
I don't have to write this.
Sometimes, I wish I could just let it go.
But, apparently I'm too stubborn and selfish for that.
I don't know to to handle it anymore.
I really don't want to care anymore.
I really, really don't want.

Again, it's not that simple.

Back to Japan

Today Fong is going back to Japan. I feel a bit depressed. It's probably the pre-exam thing anyway... but still, there's always the after taste that of an aching feeling. You know, the one that accompanies when you leave family and friends and you sort of miss them...

So, she arrived in the afternoon and then we went to Midvalley (Fong, Sharon and I). And we went for lunch at Secret Recipe and met Shin there. After lunch, we went to see the pet exhibition. The animals are sooo cute. Too bad I couldn't take them back...

Little kitty kat.

Another kitty kat.

Georgous doggies. Father and son. :)

After some time, Fong and I decided to go to Carrefour to get some stuffs first. It was not for long. Went to ta pau some food home and we departed back to Vista...

She's gone now. Just left about an hour and a half ago. I'm so gonna miss her. Sigh.

Here are some pics for your erm...entertainment.

Fong and I at the pet exhibition.

Fong and Shin at the exhibition.

Shin, Sharon and I in Carrefour.

Fong and I outside Carrefour near the toilet and ATM.

Shin and I outside Carrefour.

Shin, Fong and I at the same place again.

I'll miss you guys. So gonna miss you guys. Arghghhghghghghgh....

Rant

Long emotional ranting ahead. Do not read if you are not into feeling more depressed. Do read if you are into delving in other people's bad days...

I am so frustrated.
Fong!!!! Why aren't you online. Geesh...I'm being more and more possessive every day.
Or more like addicted. Arghhhh..

I can't focus on studying. As much my brain is saying, logically, it's time for you to start studying!!! Start right now!!! I know. But, my body and soul aren't really responding. Such failure.

All this makes me feel like a complete loser. I have seen people who have so much more to stress about than me but they seem to be handling it just fine. And me, I am just stressed out by just all this minor, insignificant things??? I am such a failure, man.

Right now, I am thinking that I have not finished my CVS study schedule. In fact, I am wayyyy behind. And I have to wake up early for some patho session tomorrow. And I have to dread PBL and all the researching and studying and presenting. I am worried cause I can't seem to really remember what I have read throughout the week of MSK. I am worried for the fund raising. Don't know how it is doing. And I feel like I am not doing much... I'm thinking I have to study for CSU on Tuesday and praying I don't get in any trouble during CSU. Which means not getting some specific lecturers... I have sooo many things on my mind, it is really really driving me crazy. And of course, as usual, adding to my emoness. SIGH.

It is thus again, the season of Lent. And, like most Lent, I had never done anything special for it. You know, stuffs like fasting, abstaining from favourite stuffs or doing some spritual thing. And I haven't even been to confession!!! I shall not mention how long...

Really. I think I have been thinking too much. I was even thinking when I wrote the line before!!!!! I should turn off my brain for a while. Where's the switch...

Stuffs from Japan

My friend came back from Japan. Yes, Fong, it's you :)
And she brought me stuffs. Haha.

This is a watch she bought from Jusco, Japan.

Souveniors from Backstreet Boys concert in Japan!!!

A black bag.

A white bag.

A handphone pouch.

Earrings. There were also necklaces which pictures I didn't take.

Hair clips.

Of course, as a norm, we went out.

Sticker photos took in Midvalley.

And more. :)

She also brought me clothes that she decided to discard. Yeah!!!

Thank you soooo much. Muaks!!

She went back home this morning. I miss her so much. :(